[DOT]SIMPLE.

I lost myself. I’m gonna take this as a wake up call.

Thu, 23 May 2013 21:22:16 -0700

I lost myself. I’m gonna take this as a wake up call.

she really is one in a million.

Thu, 23 May 2013 15:07:00 -0700

she really is one in a million.

Let me show you that you are the only one.. let me show you that you truly are the only girl that...

Thu, 23 May 2013 15:03:00 -0700

Let me show you that you are the only one.. let me show you that you truly are the only girl that I’ll ever need in my life, let me show you that you are the only girl I want in my life, Let me show you .. That you ARE THE ONLY GIRL IN MY LIFE.

I want you to see that you are my only one and that you are the only girl I want to love in my life, that you are the only girl I want to take care of in my life, that your attention is all the attention that I’ll ever need that your hand will be the only hand that I hold while I drive or while I walk around ..That you are the only girl I see with me in my future . that you are the only girl I call beautiful.. that you are the only girl I call Babe. that you are and will always be my babygirl . that I do value your heart, your soul, your emotions and you.. I want to love you endlessly.

what scares me most is knowing that lately I’ve been so quick to irritate you and anger...

Thu, 23 May 2013 12:12:00 -0700

what scares me most is knowing that lately I’ve been so quick to irritate you and anger you… and whenever we do argue it quickly drowns me into the pool I should’ve never swam in .. we were once on a breaking point where things really did get far… and I’m scared of going back that way I really don’t want that for us . You’re my lifesaver babe.. you’ve been nothing but the greatest of help to me, your never ending support through hard times, your sweet caring spirit that lifts me up in the morning to get up and do better in life you truly motivate me to do what I need to do so that you and I can have a better future.. not only for us but for others too ..Jayelon and Leilani… I’ve never made these kind of plans with anybody ever I never thought I’d be so in love with someone like you. To be completely honest with you .. you’re the first girl for me to have done most of the things we did… and I can genuinely say that you truly are my first love..I really am In love with you … I love you so much babe.. please .. just don’t leave me, I’m scared, I’m scared that you’ll just leave and give up on me from being overwhelmed by all of this.. I’m scared of the heart break and the heart ache.. please don’t do the things you told me not to do.. don’t play with my heart . don’t mess with my emotions. please.. I’m just scared. scared to lose you. to lose the one I love the most.

“Because I’m the heroes child that’s why.” YES YES YES YES...

Tue, 21 May 2013 22:39:22 -0700

“Because I’m the heroes child that’s why.”

YES YES YES YES FUCK YES

its getting to me.. I just miss how things were before I came back to Long Beach.. I’m trying...

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:43:53 -0700

its getting to me.. I just miss how things were before I came back to Long Beach.. I’m trying to be strong I just miss you so fucking much.

what hurts most is hearing you tell me ” I dont care “..to me that feels like me getting...

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:28:46 -0700

what hurts most is hearing you tell me ” I dont care “..
to me that feels like me getting shot in the chest at point blank with a shot gun loaded. ..

what did I do wrong ?

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:20:19 -0700

Yes we had an oovoo date … And I was looking forward to it but you were sleeping and knowing from earlier today.. you had no rest and I wanted to be sure that you got your rest cause staying up that late is unhealthy, Thats why I told you go back to bed.. I wanted you to get your sleep I wanted you to catch up on rest.. I didn’t know you purposely got up to speak to me, you should’ve just told me that hey im getting up for our oovoo date I would’ve been fine with that you could’ve told me what you said to me.. but no. and I wasn’t mad just cause you went back to sleep.. I was upset cause all you said was ” K ” after I told you I love you..
what am I doing wrong.. now you’re not even talking to me.. I was just concern about you and your health.. but now I feel like a dick.. what did I do wrong ?

私はあなたを愛し、それは私が今までやってみたいすべてです。私はちょうどあなたが私はあなたが私はあなたから得ていること、落ち込んで孤独、怒り、退屈、怒ったり、何私はちょうどこの悪い雰囲気を好まないことした...

Sun, 19 May 2013 22:35:01 -0700

私はあなたを愛し、それは私が今までやってみたいすべてです。私はちょうどあなたが私はあなたが私はあなたから得ていること、落ち込んで孤独、怒り、退屈、怒ったり、何私はちょうどこの悪い雰囲気を好まないことしたくない幸せになりたい、私はあなたと非常に頑固であることのためにごめんなさい..私はちょうどあなたが私はあなたを愛してみましょう愛したい。

An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward.. So when life is dragging you back with...

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:12:44 -0700

An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward.. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means that it’s going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and Keep aiming.

Dear Julianne B. ,

Sun, 19 May 2013 13:59:07 -0700

OMG KLAJDKFJASJF <3

wow I mean idk what to say … I LOVE YOU. and this legit surprised me and really brought a huge ass smile to my face and it also made me tear…. just to know you took the time and effort to explain to me how you felt it brings joy into my heart babe knowing that you feel the EXACT same way as I do .. its pretty amazing to me.. yeah we both share the joys and wonders in wanting to love someone and we both share the same fears that come along with doing so but as long as we’re sure to reassure each other once in a while then we’ll be fine. babe I love you and only you.. IM IN LOVE WITH YOU. I never knew how it felt like to be in love ..and im pretty sure this has got to be it. lol I’ve never imagined my future with anyone else that far down the line only with you. I’ve never had thoughts of having a kid with other people just you .. I want you to be the mother of my children babe I want you to be one to walk down the isle… to be the one to kiss me under the alter .. the one I want to marry . the one to share the rest of my life with . the one I want to love for the rest of my life.. The one IM GOING TO NEED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. Its you and it always has been you babe. Like you I’m scared of all of it.. I’m scared of the heartbreak the pain the disappointment Im scared that one day you might just up and leave me or that you’ll lose interest or you’ll just get tired of me im scared to lose you ..just like you I’m scare d of losing you I’m scared to lose the one I love most . just know that I will fight long and hard for you and that I have no intentions on leaving you and breaking your heart I have no intentions on cheating on you or fucking around .. my only intention is to love you babe I want to take care of you.Just let me love you babe. thats all I’ll need and want . thank you for everything babe thank you for being the one thank you for loving me and supporting me thank you for just being in my life .. although lately its been rough on us I’ll always still love you unconditionally .. that has been the promise I’ve made to you when I got you that promise ring.. even tho we don’t wear them … the promises I made I will always keep and will continue to do so. I love you so much babe thank you my love, my hunny bunch, my sugarpie, my sweetiepie, my sweetheart, my babylove, my little soldier, my honeybaby, my wifeylove, my girlfriend, my uglybutt, my one and only , my only one and most importantly .. my true love. thank you. I LOVE YOU ! MUAH !!

sigh...

Sat, 18 May 2013 16:36:07 -0700

Why am I getting ridiculed for my past ? What have I done to make you think that way ? I told you I have nothing to hide from you. You get all of me, how I am now, my past and my future. What you do with it is your choice but to put me down cause of my homegirls from the past ? Can’t you see what I do for you ? I dropped them all just to show you I’m not like the rest I’m not gonna go off and fuck around like other guys .. i dont talk text comment reply messege any of my homegirls just to show you that I’m not fucking around and that I’m serious I get it you’re scared .. thats normal but to be pushing me away for something I never did to you… idk.. it hurts I put in my all for you, for this relationship for us to work.. to know you feel one way then the next you’re questioning it… it hurts…

scared

Sat, 18 May 2013 02:57:36 -0700

just lately things have been slowly bringing us down emotionally … I personally want on our relationship TOGETHER but how can we grow if you’re just gonna hold back on me ? I thought we were in this together, I thought I’ was gonna give you my all and you give me your all ?

I’ve never felt this way ever before about a person, I’ve never been so drawn, so attached, to another. I’ve never loved and cared so much about another person… I’ve never wanted someone so much in my life .. No one can amount up to the way I feel about you . You’re the first girl I’ve ever had thoughts of having such a long life with, You’re the first girl I’ve ever made plans with for not only near future but for our long term future. I’ve never needed anyone so much in my life. I’ve never had the support, the love, the care that you give me now. No ones ever fully accepted me the way you did.

I love spending quality time with my lovebug :] our last trip at...

Tue, 14 May 2013 14:36:09 -0700

I love spending quality time with my lovebug :] our last trip at the park with the sprinklers on. such a fun time here’s some footage we got of us playing around :]. I miss you babe ! ahh I love you ! don’t worry we’ll be back in each others arms soon .

im sorry

Mon, 13 May 2013 23:22:21 -0700

im sorry

May 12, 2013Today marks our 6th month anniversary this marks the...

Sun, 12 May 2013 16:06:20 -0700

May 12, 2013

Today marks our 6th month anniversary this marks the 6th months of up’s and down’s arguments and fights, tears and smiles, Joy and laughter…
within the last 6 months I never thought I’d grow into who I am now, 6 months ago I never thought I’d stumble across someone who’s amazingly beautiful, someone who’s genuinely intelligent, someone who is caring and welcoming as you are. I never knew I’d stumble across you the way I did, I realized over the 6 months how blessed I am to have you in my life. Living with you for the last month was such an amazing time.. we grew together, our relationship grew, our bond grew, and as people you and I grew as well. Everyday I spent out there I learned more and more about you, like no matter how much you hate your mom with a burning passion you will always have never ending love for her, and how ambitious you are, and how amazingly mature you are about situations in life and how amazingly intelligent your reasoning skills are and how much of an amazing girlfriend you really are to me. waking up to you cooking my favorite breakfast or coming home late night from work and having you there waiting for me with dinner made, it goes on. You have been nothing but the greatest to me whenever I was down you were there to pick me back up, whenever I was sad you were there to easily put a smile on my face whenever times were rough you were there to hold me and comfort me you were there rubbing my head, whenever we had arguments no matter how hard it got you were still there to love me at my worst. .. YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE TO LOVE ME NO MATTER WHAT IT WAS WE WERE GOING THROUGH…. I love you so much I’ve never felt this way about another person, I never knew someone would love me as much as you do. I never knew someone could be as supportive as you are… I never knew that one day I was gonna stumble across someone like you. and I think god for having such a blessing like you in my life… thank you for everything you’ve done for me, thank you for everything you’ve given me, thank you for the love, thank you for keeping my heart safe.. thank you for everything. I love you so much Julianne Kiani Lontayao Bolosan. Happy 6 months to us and many more to come ! ahhh MUAH LOVE YOU !

I’m sorry I can’t SHOW YOU how I Really feel due to your mom… and your mom’s...

Thu, 02 May 2013 01:03:26 -0700

I’m sorry I can’t SHOW YOU how I Really feel due to your mom… and your mom’s constantly bitching at you . I’m sorry,

Frustration.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 20:25:59 -0700

Your mom doesn’t want me here.

let it out. 2:58AM

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 02:57:00 -0700

its been 22 days since I moved here to Vegas.
and I finally start to cry and break down..

I dont know how to handle all of this.. stressed from the fact that it all happened so quick and last minute not fully prepared for what was in stored for me..the thing I was worried about the most… Barely started working and I’m already fucking up. My girls mom wants me out by the 3rd week of May….. when the original deal was that I stay in for about 2 months max.. I was basically jobless for about 2 -3 weeks due to Forever 21 fucking up my transfer… and they still haven’t called me. I have an okay job with great pay its just the commute .. I have to walk an hour to get to work .. I can’t take the bus cause I just started working here.. no money..I can’t save up much if she wants me out by then.. I need money for a place.. I need money for a car…if I can’t get a car whatever I’ll get a bike the main thing I need is a place to stay … Nordstrom Rack is complete bullshit..didn’t get the ” training ” till like my 3rd day there… and that wasnt even training it was just sitting in the room watching videos for about 2-3 hours of my shift . ahhh I’m so ahhhh right now I’ve been broke since I have no income till the 5th..I have things to pay for like my phone and my loans.. ahh kljasdfja fuck.. I don’t want it to be easy on me I just want to be stable. I just want to be settled in already . fuck man…. I miss Long Beach. I miss my family.. I miss my niece.. I miss my homies.. I miss my room. I miss it.

OTIS. Wolf Grey & Pure Platinum.

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 17:16:10 -0700

OTIS.
Wolf Grey & Pure Platinum.