“Because I’m the heroes child that’s why.”

YES YES YES YES FUCK YES

its getting to me.. I just miss how things were before I came back to Long  Beach.. I’m trying to be strong  I just miss you so fucking much.

what hurts most is hearing you tell me ” I dont care “..
to me that feels like me getting shot in the chest at point blank with a shot gun loaded. ..

Yes we had an oovoo date … And I was looking forward to it but you were sleeping and knowing from earlier today.. you had no rest and I wanted to be sure that you got your rest cause staying up that late is unhealthy, Thats why I told you go back to bed.. I wanted you to get your sleep I wanted you to catch up on rest.. I didn’t know you purposely got up to speak to me, you should’ve just told me that hey im getting up for our oovoo date I would’ve been fine with that you could’ve told me what you said to me.. but no. and I wasn’t mad just cause you went back to sleep.. I was upset cause all you said was ” K ” after I told you I love you.. 
what am I doing wrong.. now you’re not even talking to me.. I was just concern about you and your health.. but now I feel like a dick.. what did I do wrong ?

私はあなたを愛し、それは私が今までやってみたいすべてです。私はちょうどあなたが私はあなたが私はあなたから得ていること、落ち込んで孤独、怒り、退屈、怒ったり、何私はちょうどこの悪い雰囲気を好まないことしたくない幸せになりたい、私はあなたと非常に頑固であることのためにごめんなさい..私はちょうどあなたが私はあなたを愛してみましょう愛したい。

An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward.. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means that it’s going to launch you into something great. So just focus, and Keep aiming.

OMG KLAJDKFJASJF <3

wow I mean idk what to say … I LOVE YOU. and this legit surprised me and really brought a huge ass smile to my face and it also made me tear…. just to know you took the time and effort to explain to me how you felt it brings joy into my heart babe knowing that you feel the EXACT same way as I do .. its pretty amazing to me.. yeah we both share the joys and wonders in wanting to love someone and we both share the same fears that come along with doing so but as long as we’re sure to reassure each other once in a while then we’ll be fine. babe I love you and only you..  IM IN LOVE WITH YOU. I never knew how it felt like to be in love ..and im pretty sure this has got to be it. lol I’ve never imagined my future with anyone else that far down the line only with you. I’ve never had thoughts of having a kid with other people just you .. I want you to be the mother of my children babe I want you to be one to walk down the isle… to be the one to kiss me under the alter .. the one I want to marry . the one to share the rest of my life with . the one I want to love for the rest of my life.. The one IM GOING TO NEED FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. Its you and it always has been you babe. Like you I’m scared of all of it.. I’m scared of the heartbreak the pain the disappointment Im scared that one day you might just up and leave me or that you’ll lose interest or you’ll just get tired of me im scared to lose you ..just like you I’m scare d of losing you I’m scared to lose the one I love most . just know that I will fight long and hard for you and that I have no intentions on leaving you and breaking your heart I have no intentions on cheating on you or fucking around .. my only intention is to love you babe I want to take care of you.Just let me love you babe. thats all I’ll need and want . thank you for everything babe thank you for being the one thank you for loving me and supporting me  thank you for just being in my life .. although lately its been rough on us I’ll always still love you unconditionally .. that has been the promise I’ve made to you when I got you that promise ring.. even tho we don’t wear them … the promises I made I will always keep and will continue to do so. I love you so much babe thank you my love, my hunny bunch, my sugarpie, my sweetiepie, my sweetheart, my babylove, my little soldier, my honeybaby, my wifeylove, my girlfriend, my uglybutt, my one and only , my only one and most importantly .. my true love. thank you. I LOVE YOU ! MUAH !!

Why am I getting ridiculed for my past ? What have I done to make you think that way ? I told you I have nothing to hide from you. You get all of me, how I am now, my past and my future. What you do with it is your choice but to put me down cause of my homegirls from the past ? Can’t you see what I do for you ? I dropped them all just to show you I’m not like the rest I’m not gonna go off and fuck around like other guys .. i dont talk text comment reply messege any of my homegirls just to show you that I’m not fucking around and that I’m serious I get it you’re scared .. thats normal but to be pushing me away for something I never did to you… idk.. it hurts I put in my all for you, for this relationship for us to work.. to know you feel one way then the next you’re questioning it… it hurts…

just lately things have been slowly bringing us down emotionally … I personally want on our relationship TOGETHER but how can we grow if you’re just gonna hold back on me ? I thought we were in this together, I thought I’ was gonna give you my all and you give me your all ? 

I’ve never felt this way ever before about a person, I’ve never been so drawn, so attached, to another. I’ve never loved and cared so much about another person… I’ve never wanted someone so much in my life .. No one can amount up to the way I feel about you . You’re the first girl I’ve ever had thoughts of having such a long life with, You’re the first girl I’ve ever made plans with for not only near future but for our long term future. I’ve never needed anyone so much in my life. I’ve never had the support, the love, the care that you give me now. No ones ever fully accepted me the way you did.